I have a really bad temper. It's been my new year/summer camp resolution every year in the past to change that, now it disappeared, coz I stopped trying... That "wait from a count from 1 to 10 thing" doesn't work for me at all.
In the class of Growth and Personal Relationship that I'm taking now, I have to read two books. And there were some very insightful reminders from one of them. (I still haven't started the other one yet.)
"If you find that you can control your temper at work, but not with people whom you are close to, that doesn't mean your family is more easily bullied, that means YOU CAN CONTROL YOUR TEMPER."
And another good suggestion is that next time when you're angry, ask yourself why you are angry. I have tried this for a few days and found that it works sometimes, and sometimes the answer on why I'm angry is actually because the other person is right...
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Vanness Wu
So amazing, I was just watching TV, and then through this addiction to Autumn's concerto, God actually talked to me and encouraged me through Vanness' story.
Just found this interview of his on youtube.
I don't usually like reading/watching personal testimony, if not for this addiction to Autumn's concerto, I'd never start watching these testimonies of his. haha
Through his changes (the most obvious of all, his promise of abstinence), one can see God's PRESENCE.
I remembered his story during the filming of the Autumn's concerto, he realised how his pride and preoccupation with his own album have been affecting his performance. And he changed his attitude with God's help, and then the director noted a marked improvement in his acting in the drama.
His problems and God's help have been good reminders for me, because I have been suffering from similar problems myself.
And there is recent incident of his employee being arrested for using marijuana, his response with Titus 2:6-8 (this is the first time I have ever opened the Bible because of something an artiste said, hahaha) was a very good reminder to me as well. We should strive to be a good role model, by showing integrity, seriousness and soundness of speech. I should probably shut my mouth up more.
And every day he spends one hour in prayer in the morning... I'm really feeling bad about spending too little time with God...
Just found this interview of his on youtube.
I don't usually like reading/watching personal testimony, if not for this addiction to Autumn's concerto, I'd never start watching these testimonies of his. haha
Through his changes (the most obvious of all, his promise of abstinence), one can see God's PRESENCE.
I remembered his story during the filming of the Autumn's concerto, he realised how his pride and preoccupation with his own album have been affecting his performance. And he changed his attitude with God's help, and then the director noted a marked improvement in his acting in the drama.
His problems and God's help have been good reminders for me, because I have been suffering from similar problems myself.
And there is recent incident of his employee being arrested for using marijuana, his response with Titus 2:6-8 (this is the first time I have ever opened the Bible because of something an artiste said, hahaha) was a very good reminder to me as well. We should strive to be a good role model, by showing integrity, seriousness and soundness of speech. I should probably shut my mouth up more.
And every day he spends one hour in prayer in the morning... I'm really feeling bad about spending too little time with God...
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Retreat Camp
I have been to a retreat camp in January for my spiritual formation class, but I've been too busy doing other "mo liu" things, rather than writing about it after I got back.
Before I have even arrived at the camp site on that day, my headphone broke because it got caught in the entrance gate of the Star Ferry... so then I thought God must really want me to enjoy the quiet time... with absolutely no distractions at all... :P
Well, it was the first ever retreat camp I have been to that has almost no program at all! Almost all the time is reserved for meditation and prayer. It's a challenge for me, I'm really bad in being quiet, with nothing to do. I'm a multi-task person...
We had a walk in silence the first night, I didn't get much that night, but that experience was something new to me.
I slept rather poorly in that room, so I was quite sleepy on the next day. My roommate and I went to the small chapel in the camp, we could kneel down in the chapel, and I prayed and then read the Bible and then fell asleep on the benches, what a good experience, haha, rest is important!
When I prayed with a Walter Brueggemann prayer book- Awed to Heaven, Rooted in Earth on that day in that chapel, looking at Jesus on a cross with blood dropping from his hands (it was a Catholic chapel)
"Draw us from the wretchedness we know
to his scarred, bloody wretchedness
that is your odd entry of newness into our life"
I was so touched by God on that day, I was feeling unhappy for something. I looked at Jesus' blood on the cross, and prayed that He could draw me from my wretchedness and into his SCARRED BLOODY wretchedness, that is the really odd way to put newness into my life, but that is how special the God that I believed in is. And how much more wretched He was on the cross (compared to me), and He must know how I felt.
It is difficult to see the blood from Jesus, unless I enlarge the photo, so u can just click on the photo and zoom in to see clearly if you want to.
Before I have even arrived at the camp site on that day, my headphone broke because it got caught in the entrance gate of the Star Ferry... so then I thought God must really want me to enjoy the quiet time... with absolutely no distractions at all... :P
Well, it was the first ever retreat camp I have been to that has almost no program at all! Almost all the time is reserved for meditation and prayer. It's a challenge for me, I'm really bad in being quiet, with nothing to do. I'm a multi-task person...
We had a walk in silence the first night, I didn't get much that night, but that experience was something new to me.
I slept rather poorly in that room, so I was quite sleepy on the next day. My roommate and I went to the small chapel in the camp, we could kneel down in the chapel, and I prayed and then read the Bible and then fell asleep on the benches, what a good experience, haha, rest is important!
When I prayed with a Walter Brueggemann prayer book- Awed to Heaven, Rooted in Earth on that day in that chapel, looking at Jesus on a cross with blood dropping from his hands (it was a Catholic chapel)
"Draw us from the wretchedness we know
to his scarred, bloody wretchedness
that is your odd entry of newness into our life"
I was so touched by God on that day, I was feeling unhappy for something. I looked at Jesus' blood on the cross, and prayed that He could draw me from my wretchedness and into his SCARRED BLOODY wretchedness, that is the really odd way to put newness into my life, but that is how special the God that I believed in is. And how much more wretched He was on the cross (compared to me), and He must know how I felt.
It is difficult to see the blood from Jesus, unless I enlarge the photo, so u can just click on the photo and zoom in to see clearly if you want to.
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